Errata
I wanted to say thanks again to everyone who has been doing me the great favor of reading my writing. To once again reiterate that you have all made this a great experience for me. I was hesitant to post chapter three. Everything I have posted so far has been off the cuff, but chapter three was the "most" off the cuff of them all. Despite its length I wrote it in a day. I am unsure how I feel about it. For those of you that have been reading youll probably have noticed that its "style" is a bit different from chapters one and two (those two chapters, and hopefully the chapters that follow 3, I consider more true to my "natural" writing style). Obviously chapter three had a bunch of ornamentation and elaboration to it. I did this more dramatized version because I really wanted to convey the anger and brooding that I went through, without simply writing how angry I was while sitting in the dark of my house over and over again. In other words it was an attempt to convey the complexity of emotion even if the truth of the matter was, from the perspective of a potential observer of me in those states, it was very simply me living day to day. I am still considering other ways to write this chapter; I am partially happy with how it came out, even in this super rough sketch, but in other ways I do not like how it breaks (in my opinion) with some of the more "visceral" components of description in the first two chapters.
At any rate Im writing this to say that if you didnt like chapter three in its four sections as much as the first two chapters, you are not alone (though Im not entirely displeased with them) and please dont stop reading because the rest of what I have written is much more in line with the first two chapters (in fact, despite the chapter order, chapter three was the earliest written, and in one sense thus the least authentic. I was still so close to the situation I almost feel the dramatized narrative came about as a buffer shielding myself from the event).
I do not want to comment on which parts are "real" and which "fake". There is in fact a lot that was real. And I feel that the division "real" verse "fake" is an artificial category to judge those moments I was attempting to write about.
Anyway, please keep reading, there is more coming!
And as always I would love to hear opinions, suggestions, questions, etc... as long as you keep them friendly!
At any rate Im writing this to say that if you didnt like chapter three in its four sections as much as the first two chapters, you are not alone (though Im not entirely displeased with them) and please dont stop reading because the rest of what I have written is much more in line with the first two chapters (in fact, despite the chapter order, chapter three was the earliest written, and in one sense thus the least authentic. I was still so close to the situation I almost feel the dramatized narrative came about as a buffer shielding myself from the event).
I do not want to comment on which parts are "real" and which "fake". There is in fact a lot that was real. And I feel that the division "real" verse "fake" is an artificial category to judge those moments I was attempting to write about.
Anyway, please keep reading, there is more coming!
And as always I would love to hear opinions, suggestions, questions, etc... as long as you keep them friendly!
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